I Hate Competition....

I really don't like to compete for things....especially my boyfriend's affection! We get on the phone every night after work and the same things happens; we don't talk. It is complete silence except for the gunfire in the background from his stupid computer game that he plays with some of the guys at work. I have asked him to stop playing and talk to me for a little bit and all I get is "WHY" or "THAT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN". Which then I get mad at we get into a fight night and night again. I was in the workout room at work with some of my friends last night and they were asking me what's up with the two of us. Why we aren't talking; I just said we're busy at work and can't talk. Then they wanted to know about outside of work, all I could do was stare and think. I can't remember the last time my boyfriend and I had a conversation! I told them how we haven't really talked or done anything since his birthday (June 5th). Everyone was in shock and I realized why......I was trying to compete with the guys at work and the game. I'm done and I'm not doing it anymore!